Obese to Fit

This is my current physical goal, to no longer be considered Obese.

Obese is such an ugly word. The images that word conjures are of sloven people over indulging in every possible avenue of food and not caring about his or her appearance or health. Today, I am probably one of the healthiest obese people you will ever meet. I am not a diabetic, I do not have high blood pressure, I do not take any medications whatsoever on a regular basis to manage any chronic illness or for the prevention of a chronic illness. I am just morbidly obese, I currently have 200 lbs to lose to reach what most of the medical community would consider a healthy weight. 200 lbs! I have been over weight for as long as I can remember, the girl with the "cute face" ugh, that was the bane of my existence growing up. Always the big girl with the cute face that would be "So pretty if you lost a little weight.".

Admittedly, I have had some self esteem issues. We all have our moments, mine lasted a few years, but through the grace of God and the introduction of the right people, places, and experiences in my life, I stand. I consider myself relatively well rounded as a human being... just more round than I want to be physically. I have an eclectic group of friends all over the world and have had some wonderful experiences, whose memories I will cherish as long as my mind will hold them.

In my life, I have also missed out on what could have been fantastic experiences because of my weight. White water rafting in India, hiking, camping, roller coaster rides with my twins when they were 3, are a few that come to mind right now. Everyone tells you to live your life so that when you look back on it  you will have no regrets and that people awaiting the end of their lives rarely regret working hard, but they regret the things they did not do...

I am 3 weeks into a new exercise program with a focused meal plan to help me reach my health and fitness goals. I know there will be more obstacles along the way, (Like the table full of doughnuts at EVERY meeting I have attended in the past 3 weeks!)

Perfection is not my goal. My goals are:
1)  Eat with awareness, no blind eating because something is there
2) Follow the plan for the exercise program I have chosen, currently T25
3) Drink plenty of water
4) Write a blog regularly about this process sharing my challenges, results, and next steps

When I began this process, I was unable to weigh myself on my home scale and I gave myself a month to be able to do that. The scale goes up to 363 lbs accurately. On Feb 8th I was able to weigh myself on my home scale. My next weigh loss goal is to lose 10 lbs from the weight I was able to see on the scale, as of today, I have 9 more lbs to go... #ProgressNotPerfection is my mantra!

'Til Next Time

Cleaning out the cobwebs...

Looking over this blog space, I haven't posted a blog in years! Sheesh! Life... it's happening!
It could take years to update what I have been doing, but I'll give a quick over view and pick up with more thoughts another time.

Today Feb 13, 2014, we are enjoying a 3rd snow day this week from the big Snowmegedeon snow storm of 2014, we experienced a crushing 1.5 inches of snow and ice that have had the school systems around us closed for 3 days. We did get the least amount of snow around, there were areas that had close to 6 inches of snow.

My intention with the Blog... this time, is the journal regularly my current journeys. Publicly sharing my dreams and thoughts. I don't know that I have anything profound or wise to share, but that is the beauty of the time we live in, everything has value to someone. At the very least, this will be a reflection of the person I am as I live the final year of my Thirties and scream into my 40s with a bang and a roar!

'Til next time,
Stay Strong!

Time flies!

Time flies when you are raising twins, moving into a new state, town, church, and school.
I can't believe it has been over a year since I last posted a blog!

The closing on our house happened on May 23rd and we have been living in a construction zone ever since. I "stole" my sister's children (all 4 of them) last summer and we had a wonderful time, just being together!

The twins finished Kindergarten with smiles and have grown into such wonderful little people that they make me smile daily with their expressions and reflections!

Summer is in full swing and we have already made the 1st of a few road trips to TX to see friends and a high school graduation. 14.5 hours going and 15.5 hours coming back. The girls are "Road Warriors" through and through. I can't imagine being on the road as much as we have been in their lifetime without them gaining a love for the "road trip".

I have met a lot of new people, made a few friends that could be great friends and a few that will just be passing friends.

I gave up chicken, beef, and pork in January. I eat seafood from time to time and reduce the amount of cheese and cow's milk products. One of my daughters has also decided to not eat meat any more, I have to admit that makes me proud. I am also equally proud of my other daughter for deciding that she "likes meat" and continuing to eat meat with her father...

'Til next time

Are we there yet?

Up bright and early this morning...

Looking forward to my FIL returning so he can keep the twins for the day while Troy and I put their room together for a nice surprise on Monday.

I think I will make a nice little stir fry tonight since it might be a pretty long day.

We are all very excited to move into the next stage of our lives.

I think I will treat the twins to a little nail polish, pink for Nella and purple for Naomi...

'Til next time...

2 years later...

I often sit and think, "Man, I should be writing this stuff down."

I happened to read a friend's blog tonight about her pregnancy and remembered, I used to Blog...

So here I am!

Too much has happened in the past to years to bring anyone up to speed that hasn't been along for the ride. The short version, the twins are potty trained, super duper road warriors and we have now PCS'd (relocated) to Alabama.

We are 48 hours away from closing on our second house, soon to be called home. 53 days is a long time to be "wandering" but I know people who have wandered for longer. I am also aware that there are people who are not 2 days away from ending their homelessness, I count myself blessed.

We have SO many plans for making this house our home... Dear Lord, please let it be as fun as it is in my mind right now! Time will tell.

Even though we don't officially close on the house until Monday, the sellers have given us a set of keys to begin loading some of our things into the house this weekend. My plan is to set up the twin's room with their big girl bunk beds and have it as a surprise for them when we take them to the house to move in Monday or Tuesday. I will post some pictures somewhere.

I decided that I would like to make Roman Shades for the windows. There is an AMAZING fabric store in Fayetteville, TN that I am certain I will be able to find something that will compliment the twin's bedding.

I really would like to decorate this house as well or better than our house in NC. We were unwilling to paint the army's housing, so we are (or I am) eager to truly personalize this space. I have a rough outline of what I want to get done laid out, tomorrow we start the heavy lifting!

There are so many things that I feel have fallen by the wayside during our time of displacement. I have not exercised regularly, I haven't eaten nearly enough raw food, and I haven't gotten enough sleep. The bed we have slept on for the past 8 weeks is what we call a "Think happy thoughts bed" because it is SO uncomfortable, that you have to think happy thoughts to get some sleep, rest is relative, I don't think we have truly rested since we have been here. We have slept... Something Troy is able to achieve FAR easier that I am, a state of sleep. 2.5 seconds after he rolls over, he is gone... I think I will join him.

Until next time...

5am ramblings

So, it's allergy season!

Thank GOD I don't have allergies, my twins are not as fortunate.
Their primary symptom is runny noses with the persistent cough.

We fight a never ending battle it seems, but with a little Claritin and some spoons, we are making some headway. Good thing they don't mind taking their medicine.

Nella got up this morning at 3am from her cough and soaking wet diaper, she whined and complained the entire time I changed her, something close to a wounded small animal.

I wasn't fast enough to get her stripped and rediapered and dressed before her dad woke up to ask "What's wrong with you?" I have to remind him that he can't just default to "What the Hell?!?" mode when they make noise in the middle of the night, he prefers that his sleep not be interrupted. I informed him that her allergies where bothering her and that she was soaked and he turned over and when back to sleep, lucky him. That was 2.5 hours ago...

I wonder what fresh insanity will begin at work today?

9 Wonderful days of Memories

My twin visited for 9 days as her birthday present to me, I couldn't have asked for a more appropriate gift.

She arrived on Jan 23 and flew back to NC this morning, Feb 2nd.

Some trips of visits go by SO fast that you can barely enjoy it and by the time it is over, you are wishing for more time. Well, I certainly would love to have had more time with my twin, I enjoyed every moment of her visit here and look forward to the time that we can do it again. The past nine days went by SO slow it was FANTASTIC!

We took our time to enjoy each other and she met most of my friends. It is great to be able to share my twin with those around me that make this place bearable.

I will write more, but right now, I have to get my little terrorist cell in the bed, night 1 to implement the skill Coley taught.

'Til Next time
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